Monday, November 06, 2006

me?! baby fever????

oh, what the hell is going on.... i didn't think i had a "biological clock" but apparently, it's begn to tick. i want a baby!
of course i'm used to people always asking me "when are you getting married?" and "when are you going to have a baby?" but it never affected me before. but... within the past few weeks with new babies being born and my sister's wedding, all of a sudden i'm thinking the same thing! "yeah, when" instead of my usual stock answer of "never please!"
i told jay this morning that i wanted to have a baby. i didn't much like his reaction. i'm perfectly serious and when a woman says that, she means sooner than later. his thinking is three or four years down the road. the way we have always been is that we plan things but they're always so far off that they don't require thinking about ~ probably why we aren't married yet! but, of course he had good points ~ we aren't married yet and we can't fit a baby in our place so we'd need a house. still.... when you have a definite plan, things happen so much more quickly than you'd expect. if my heart is set on having a baby, then we could skip the big wedding and just go for civil service type of thing ~ or like what teena did with less than 5 people ~ and spend the money on a house and baby.
i don't know... what do you think? am i being realistic? or am i just hooked on a new idea?