motherhood... looks freakin' scary!

i'm watching the movie "motherhood"... it's scaring the crap out of me!! i don't want to be like that!! omg...
my husband and i are trying to start our own family. the timing is good and everything and i do want a baby but......... it's so scary!!!!!
i wish i could be eloquent and then i would blog regularily.... i have so much going on in my head.... i don't know who originally wrote/said this but it sums it up "my thoughts are many; my words are few"
my words don't flow the same way my feelings do so i'm going to leave it at that...