but i still have more to say~

i can't write in nice and neatly packaged sentences so i'll just put down some thoughts...

as a parent, i don't want to be controlling and obsessed with all the details. i don't want to miss the big picture. i want my children to grow up healthy, happy, and secure. i want to seek that delicate balance between being oblivious and hyper-vigilant. i don't want to worry about every little thing they put in their mouths. i don't want my life to add up to only the number of straws i poked through juice boxes or how many underroos i washed. i want what every good parent wants but i don't want to end up like most parents... and i don't want my kids to end up like most kids.

motherhood... looks freakin' scary!

i'm watching the movie "motherhood"... it's scaring the crap out of me!! i don't want to be like that!! omg...
my husband and i are trying to start our own family. the timing is good and everything and i do want a baby but......... it's so scary!!!!!
i wish i could be eloquent and then i would blog regularily.... i have so much going on in my head.... i don't know who originally wrote/said this but it sums it up "my thoughts are many; my words are few"
my words don't flow the same way my feelings do so i'm going to leave it at that...