i was just looking over my previous posts... i thought it was funny that i wrote before i was married that i wanted a baby and didn't want to wait 3 or 4 years. it's been 3 or 4 years ~
i went through a phase of wanting a baby for a few months, then went back to not for a few years...
so, we've passed the idea back and forth since that last post. many pros and cons but we're at the point that we've decided to go ahead with it...
we got married in 2007 and bought a house a few months later, so that's out of the way.
another thing that i wanted to do before having children was to fulfill my dream of going to japan. i orginally wanted to go for an extended period of time but it's better to go for a visit than not at all. since i'm not currently working and we do have a mortgage to deal with... i was thinking i would have to get a part time job and work for a year or two and then finally be able to go BUT when jay and i were talking about it last month, he agreed that we should go soon. i was going to go next month with a friend but she's pregnant (ironically) and i didn't want to go by myself... jay had promised before we got married that we would go together one day, thinking five years from then, because we weren't going on a honeymoon.
soooooo ~ we plan to go in may for our 3rd anniversary as our honeymoon AND will actively "start trying" when we return... but i've stopped taking BC so if it happens before then.......

p.s. i also just found out my sister is currently 11 weeks with her second ~ yay!

so, am i a bad person?

hello everyone i know,

so, merry christmas, happy new year... yup, i'm really late as usual. people have been complaining that i never call, never e-mail, never anything. don't fret though. i still love you! i don't have an excuse. do you want one? okay.... um, i've been working a lot, i'm lazy, and... have been a little busy. if you love me, you'll forgive me because you know.... i'm just like that.
for those of you who don't already know, jay and i are getting married! yes... finally. for those of you who do know.... plans are coming along nicely.
so, here's the dilly ~ we're getting married in mississauga on may 5th of this year (less than four months!) and we've invited both of out immediate families. after the ceremony (which we will be video taping to show (show-off) later), we're going out for chinese food. we hope to be able to plan a reception to take place in about a year or so, depending on out financial situation so keep that in mind!
sometime, i'm hoping mid-april, i'd like to have a "tea party" for my girls and me to get together so anyone in the mississauga/southern ontario area is invited.
as for my holiday time.... what holiday? i worked pretty much the whole thing except christmas eve, day, and new years day... which i used to sleep the entire time. quiet and non-holiday-ish. we went to ann's for christmas day and watched takeo open presents. cute!
enough about me... what's new with you?!

me?! baby fever????

oh, what the hell is going on.... i didn't think i had a "biological clock" but apparently, it's begn to tick. i want a baby!
of course i'm used to people always asking me "when are you getting married?" and "when are you going to have a baby?" but it never affected me before. but... within the past few weeks with new babies being born and my sister's wedding, all of a sudden i'm thinking the same thing! "yeah, when" instead of my usual stock answer of "never please!"
i told jay this morning that i wanted to have a baby. i didn't much like his reaction. i'm perfectly serious and when a woman says that, she means sooner than later. his thinking is three or four years down the road. the way we have always been is that we plan things but they're always so far off that they don't require thinking about ~ probably why we aren't married yet! but, of course he had good points ~ we aren't married yet and we can't fit a baby in our place so we'd need a house. still.... when you have a definite plan, things happen so much more quickly than you'd expect. if my heart is set on having a baby, then we could skip the big wedding and just go for civil service type of thing ~ or like what teena did with less than 5 people ~ and spend the money on a house and baby.
i don't know... what do you think? am i being realistic? or am i just hooked on a new idea?