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It’s my day off today and Jay’s too. We woke up about 12:30. He made us some noodles and spaghetti sauce to eat. I just watched tv upstairs in his room for awhile. Then, all of a sudden, I got really emotional and started crying and telling him I couldn’t live in my apartment anymore and how much I hated being there. It was weird. I’m really weepy today. I missed my pill last night but it shouldn’t affect me that much. Maybe it’s PMS. I’m so out of whack with my other pills that I have no idea what my schedule is anymore. Poor Jay. I don’t think he knows what to do with me! He hates it when I cry. My emotions really affect him. What a great person for him to end up with….  the most emotional person I know!!

I’m working on the laptop that Mark lent to Jay right now, downstairs, watching HGTV, while Jay is upstairs playing PS2. “Hi Baby!” He says, “Love you.” I said, “Love you too!”

I’m watching One House Two Looks right now but I’ve already seen this episode twice so I’m going to find something else.

Maybe there will be something good on the movies channels. Let’s see….

Nope! Counter Measures, Too Smooth, and The Ladies Man. No thanks.

What else is on? Simpsons…. Gabbo. No. Cheers…. Ah, Coach is so cute!! But, no. Birth Stories…. Nah.

Crap, there’s nothing on.

I’ll just keep writing about my crappy life then. Just kidding. It’s not crappy. I have a wonderful boyfriend who loves me, an alright job that pays me pretty well, a cheap place to live, a family, some friends….

It could be worse.

Shelley Long wouldn’t have been so weird looking if she didn’t have that crazy haircut. Cheers was a great show but it was so cheesy! That’s the 80’s. Friends is way better. I am going to be very distraught when it’s done. I’m so wrapped up in that show that they feel like my friends. It sounds pathetic and I guess it is but in the times when I’ve been sad or had nothing to do, all I had to do to make myself feel better is pop Friends in the vcr and I’d immediately feel better. I’m so glad that they started putting them on dvd. I have the first two seasons already. I hope they do put all the seasons on.

Oooh. Look Who’s Talking is on. I remember the first time I ever saw this movie. My family was staying with another family that I didn’t know. They’re daughter was getting married or something. I remember asking my mom what the sperm and egg were. She told me she’d tell me when I was older. I haven’t seen this movie for ever! It’s great. Who does the voice of Mikey?

I want a baby. But after it’s 2, can I give it back? I sometimes don’t want kids. It’s going to be so hard! I’m afraid of everything. I’m afraid of life. I don’t know. I’ve got a few more years at least to think about it.